ex_bossily211: (not a ghost)

[personal profile] ex_bossily211 2017-05-12 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
[She supposes she ought to feel a little guilty for getting him to come here tonight. He's surprisingly gone along with everything she's suggested, ranging from ditching their plans to stay in and order pizza so she could come to the carnival and enjoy some terrible fried food. Some corn dogs and beer turn into sharing a funnel cake, which turns into Clara suggesting they go on some of the rides "since they were already there". He even wins her a stuffed bear, which she makes a big deal of and names after him. It's probably easy to tell how much she values the bear, just by the way she holds it and doesn't want to put it down.

She's a reckless daredevil and loves everything they go on, even the roller coaster that he swears isn't bolted in the right way and the ferris wheel that he swears is going to kill him once they reach the top and sit there for a while. She thinks she gets him to relax well enough with some kissing.

But nothing's likely going to be able to get him to relax as she guides him out onto a grassy area that's set up for dancing. The stars are out overhead and a live Journey cover band is playing Faithfully. It's more than a little cliche, but she wants to have this moment with him. So she stubbornly drags him to the dead center of the area and gets him to start dancing with her. It's at about the moment where the song registers with him and she glances up at his face that she knows he realizes that she's just tricked him into spending an entire night out with her.

It's a date.

They've been careful to avoid them, always keeping things physical with conversation and little things like carry out and old movies on TV being their main activities. She's never asked him for more than that, but after a year of always popping up to be with him wherever he goes (and the frequency of her visits starting to come on closer together and for longer stretches of time) she knows for sure now that she wants more. The fact that she feels so much for him and hasn't let herself say any of it yet needs to be addressed too. They've been doing this for long enough that she doesn't shy away from the fact that she thinks she might love him. She just has no idea how to approach that matter with him, especially not in a way that won't have him vanishing for a few months.
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Come on, don't look at me like that.

[She quietly pleads with him. The look on her face strongly resembles a kicked puppy, and it only becomes more dejected when she fears he might pull and run away. ]

You're enjoying yourself, aren't you? It's only a dance.

[But it isn't, not to her. And she's positive that they both know that.]
ex_bossily211: (talking it out)

[personal profile] ex_bossily211 2017-05-12 04:54 am (UTC)(link)
[Her mouth always has had a habit of running away from her. It seems that this time, she may have started a conversation that she's not ready to take part in. A lump forms in her throat and she swallows it roughly, trying not to look too disappointed. She's gone into this determined not to push him for anything. She's known since the start that he's a broken man, and she's tried to build him up without ever asking for anything from him. His life doesn't let him give hope easily.

But she still wants to give him some anyway.

The fear that he might pull away and leave is incredibly real, and she holds onto him just a little tighter.
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I think it's time we did more than just dance.

[She cautiously tells him, trying to ignore the way her voice trembles. This is unknown territory, dangerous territory. He may not forgive her for diving right in and dragging him along with her. But when you love someone, shouldn't you fight to have them? Shouldn't you want to let them know how you feel? ]

We've been dancing for a year now.
ex_bossily211: (upset)

[personal profile] ex_bossily211 2017-05-12 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
[Their relationship has been made of a lot of dancing, but there's so much more to it too. They talk while they sit in bed or watch the dingy motel tv at night. She knows what foods he likes best and which ones he won't touch. She's been there at night when he has nightmares, and he's listened to her talk excitedly about her life like it's actually fascinating.

They know one another inside and out at this point, all without ever doing more than dancing around the matter that they're already in a relationship.

She guesses they can't go back to dancing and avoiding the subject. Not now that she's impulsively said something.
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You know there's no one else I'd rather dance with, over and over...

[She goes along with his attempt to humor her, but even she can't escape the chill that's in the air now. Blaming it on their proximity to the water, she pulls herself in a little closer to him as an excuse that she needs him close to stay warm. Even his presence doesn't stop the chill of fear that causes her to shiver up against him.}

But there's more to us than that. And we both know it. Why is it so wrong to put a name to what we have? Not when I -

[She stops herself there, and tips her head to look up at his face for a moment. It's so easy to see that he's on the edge of falling apart, each word either of them say pushing him past the point of comfort.]

Admitting I love you doesn't change anything, does it?

[Except it changes everything, and now there's no turning back. Her voice cracks at the end of her question, dark eyes brimming with tears. She's always been so careful to not ever get emotional around him. There's the start of self-loathing that hates the fact she can't keep it under control here and now.]
decadentdecade: (pic#10038524)

what a good world

[personal profile] decadentdecade 2017-05-15 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
No, but I'm sure you're imagining. And you have nothing worth stealing.

[Drama queens. Shoot a guy one time...

But if she has to pick one of the brothers, she does like working Dean up better. He throws the best tantrums.]



decadentdecade: (pic#10038540)

[personal profile] decadentdecade 2017-05-15 06:07 pm (UTC)(link)
You're terrible at this game. I suppose I'll just have to play by myself. So do be sure to knock before you come in.
decadentdecade: (pic#10038518)

[personal profile] decadentdecade 2017-05-16 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
It means dirty talk is obviously not your forte.

Don't hurt your head. Just go eat another burger or circle the block before coming back.


[Because she'd never cause any trouble by herself...]
decadentdecade: (pic#10038537)

[personal profile] decadentdecade 2017-05-17 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
I am.

[And she's just going to toss the phone onto the bed and finish drinking her wine in the bath she's drawn. Normally, she wouldn't dare sit in a hotel bathtub, but since they're here on stolen credit cards, she did opt for the honeymoon suite. It goes better with their cover story anyway.

Dean no doubt, expects her to be up to something, and she is if for no other reason than to pass the time until they get what they're after. Or rather, she gets what they're after.]
ex_bossily211: (hearfelt)

[personal profile] ex_bossily211 2017-05-22 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
[They've never really fought before, which is a good thing. They're both intensely stubborn and both think they're the ones that are right. With her temper against his, any actual arguments have the potential to be explosive.

She isn't looking for a fight here.

Her hand does hold on tighter to his, not about to let him slip through her fingers so easily.
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I know exactly what I'm saying.

[And she knows that he's scared, but also knows enough to not call him on it. Not here, not when she can see that he's angry with her and that she has to attempt to diffuse the situation.

With her hand holding onto his, she leads him away from the bustle and off to the outskirts of the fairground. There's a large lake here, and it might be a peaceful or romantic setting if it weren't for the fact that whatever relationship they have might be about to crumble to the ground.
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Just because I've admitted something doesn't mean you have to reciprocate. Or do anything about it even if you feel the same way. I've kept you around this long. Nothing's gone wrong yet, has it?

[She takes the expectation that he'll say or feel something away from him, hoping it will put him at ease. He's angry and she's a little too heartfelt and emotional, but she's trying hard to guide them both toward a balance between the two.]
ex_bossily211: (hearfelt)

[personal profile] ex_bossily211 2017-05-22 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
[The sound that comes out of her is a dry, bitter laugh. It's choked out, because she can't believe that they know each other so well intimately. They know each others likes and dislikes, and they know the other's personality. But they don't know the intricate little details of the things they've been through. They both work so hard to keep the other away from that part of them.]

It's my mistake to make. The choice is mine, and the time we've spent together has been perfect.

[She flashes him a sad smile, fearing that things are about to end. She worries that she won't see him again after this. But she won't allow this to be a last conversation.]

But you must realize, don't you? That the time we spend together is only in motel rooms. We hide away from reality because we can't cope with what's going on. We can't deal with the things that we do, the events in our lives that frighten us. But fear makes companions out of us all, Dean. There's a reason I come and go as I please, and never question why you do the same. If I wanted a bloody phone call, I would've demanded one out of you!

[Her temper starts to flare, but she bites at her lip to keep it under control. Tears are forming in her eyes, and she loathes that. But she has to press forward. ]

I want to face reality with you. No matter what it brings. You have no idea the things I've done and seen, and what I'm capable of handling. You're so afraid of what it is you feel that you won't even allow me to tell you how I feel or explain what it is I want!

[In an act of desperation, she leans in and presses her lips against his. The kiss that happens is an attempt to get him to understand her feelings. She isn't asking for anything beyond an actual relationship. She doesn't think that it's too much to request after a year's time.]
decadentdecade: (pic#10038523)

[personal profile] decadentdecade 2017-05-22 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
[She sets down the empty wine glass on the side of the tub when she hears the door open, but doesn't bother to scramble out of the water. Even when she hears his warning it prompts an eyeroll rather than panic.]

Or what?

[It's only a slightly muffled question from the other side of the bathroom door that's been left ajar.]
decadentdecade: (pic#10038523)

np, same

[personal profile] decadentdecade 2017-05-31 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
[It's not a slip she misses, but she knows it won't be that easy to lure in Dean Winchester. She's well aware that he doesn't like her, but she still doesn't see why hate-sex can't be a thing. She's always found it quite entertaining. But maybe the chase is part of the appeal and the reason she still even attempts to work with him and his callous attitude-well, that and she might grudgingly admit they're fairly good at what they do.

She settles a little deeper into the bubbles even as one hand stretches and rests over the edge of the tub.]


Is it? Nice to see?

[It's easy to twist Dean's words around a bit to fit the situation at hand.]

Are you going to offer me a towel, or just continue to see?
decadentdecade: (pic#10038537)

[personal profile] decadentdecade 2017-06-03 12:20 am (UTC)(link)
No, more like the gardener.

[She sighs before shrugging slightly, as if she's given up on getting Dean to do anything for her. But she knew better when she first asked. But it makes it easier to blame what she's about to do on his stubbornness.

She pushes her self up in the tub and lingers where she's at long enough for the clinging bubbles to start shifting downward. Soon enough their won't be anything left to hide any of her nudity.

She reaches a hand out toward the towel rack.]


Really, now. Unless you want me to make a wet mess of the floor.
ranfromnormal: (088)

text;

[personal profile] ranfromnormal 2018-02-27 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
[The video Cathy sends was...well. Not intended for Dean specifically. In fact she's not really sure who this is going to beyond "someone who is not a contact in her list." She and her friends are playing a game in which they send risque content to a phone number that has been randomized, and to see what happens. So enjoy the video, Dean.]

had fun at the club tonight but I didn't feel like taking any of these guys home.
so I'm texting you to see if you can entertain me better than them

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